This time last week I was creating in my mind a facebook status that would cause me to win a spot as co-host on a new talk radio show. The whole concept of this radio show, GettinDEEP, is to bring men and women together, to learn how to communicate and to be better partners.
Cause we all know that’s something I’m good at. Communicating and being the best partner.
And I hope you can sense my sarcasm.
So I may not be in a relationship right now, and the most recent rollercoaster I was in was far from healthy… but I know what it takes for a relationship to work.
Or do I? Because I can’t help but think that if I did, I wouldn’t be single right now.
I recall being straight forward, and laying it all out on the table. Explaining to the ex my expectations of what it takes to keep me happy and our relationship healthy. I recall him doing the same and we both worked on our individual issues.
Or did we? Here I am two years later and in transition once again. I compare it all to a merry go round and call it a cycle.
I’ve realized that sometimes people aren’t capable of change. No matter how much effort you put in, even communication and compromise can’t keep a relationship happy when two people simply aren’t compatible.
Anyway, so last week as I sat in my car on my lunch break typing out my request for all my friends to vote for me to be on this radio show, I was hesitant to hit post. I had these overwhelming thoughts of “what could I possibly have to teach anyone?” and “what if I get on there and sound like an idiot?”
Even with my hesitation, I knew deep inside that it was something I was meant to do. I haven’t figured out why, and I may never know for sure… but I am glad I went for it. Cause I won.
So last night, I was GettinDEEP. Here is the link if you missed it…
http://m.soundcloud.com/#/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-5-1-13-episode-1
Everyone is saying we did great, that I’m a natural, and they said they plan on listening again next week.
Well, this morning I woke up before my alarm, which never happens, and inside my head I keep replaying some of the things I said and some of the things I should have said…
As I remind myself that it’s in the past, I realize that nothing good can come from me dwelling on it. But I still had an uneasy feeling…
I soon find out that my friend of 15 years listened in with her extremely insecure fiancé. She told me he turned it off after 30 minutes of listening, because it caused them to argue. She communicated to him that being accused of cheating all the time, may in turn cause a woman (not necessarily her) to cheat.
Even though they argued, I couldn’t help but feel accomplished. It helped them communicate. Even though they didn’t listen for long, it helped one person tell another how they felt.
This morning I got a text from a friend asking my opinion on a topic. She asked, “When a man is staying with a woman ONLY because of her skills in the bedroom… is that enough to keep a relationship going?”
My answer was no. Sex is not enough when there is no love. He will fill the void that he’s not getting somewhere. Whether it be emotional or physical.
This response contradicts something I said on air last night. When asked if my partner wanted sex 5x a week, I said I would try to compromise and request 3x… then my partner co-host said she’d wonder where he was getting the other two. I immediately took it back in my head… because I knew she was right.
It made me feel good to know people were talking about the show.
Then I soon began to realize why I was feeling so uneasy.
It was obvious that I’m not satisfied with my responses.Which I imagine is completely normal for someone who was doing this for the first time.
So I thought about where I made my mistake and how it could have been avoided.
I tried to generalize everything. I was making the attempt to speak for more than just myself. I was taking all the experiences I’ve gathered from friends and using that as my ammo.
One friend told me about a time she cheated just to help her get over her guy cheating… so I used that as to why some women cheat. They cheat to get revenge or to ease their mind.
Another friend told me about how her guy wants sex all the time and she didn’t care much for sex at all… She is content with having it once a month. My response to that was “Wow! 12x a year? 12 times in 365 days? How could you be ok with that?? That wouldn’t be enough for any man.” Not getting it as much as you prefer, may cause one to cheat.
My friend asked me how to approach her partner about having an open relationship to avoid the temptation to cheat.
Another was telling me they cheat because of how good it feels to have the “newness” or the attention is like a high for them.
Some people just have a sex addiction. They can’t go a day without it. It’s like their medicine.
A guy told me he cheated cause he always had it in his head that he could do better.
Some people like to be cheated on, and they might prefer you do it right in front of them… Or do it together.
Every relationship is different. People cheat for different reasons.
None of this had anything to do with how I should have responded… which is simply, shit happens. People make mistakes.
The one time I “stepped out”… given the unfortunate circumstances… It was because I got caught up in the moment. I wasn’t thinking about the consequences or who I was hurting.
Cheating is a very selfish and disrespectful thing to do when you are in a committed relationship.
I’ve always said if you want to have sex with someone else, why be in a relationship at all? Does your partner not deserve the respect… And if the answer is no, then you really should reevaluate why you would stay in a relationship with someone you have no respect for.
As for sex, personally, in my world, if its good, I’m willing to give it to my guy as many times as he wants.
I like sex. Sex relieves my stress. Sex makes me sleep better and helps me to have a better day. It’s a lot like my workouts. Sex will usually make my headaches go away and any negative thoughts will drift away… Even if only momentarily. It makes me smile, and I like to smile.
Why I tried to challenge my own personal answers… I have no clue.
Although, once some become comfortable in a relationship, after a while of the same requests and the same old position in the same old bed with the same routine… Who wants to do all that 5x a week. It gets boring.
No one wants to be in a boring sexual relationship.
So in my opinion, that’s why most people cheat. They get bored.
If the opportunity is there, right in front of them and it excites them… they might get caught up in the moment, and they might cheat.
Plain and simple.
So all in all, I am disappointed with my first co-host experience. I sorta feel like I was hiding my true self.
I should have followed the most important advice I was given…
Just be yourself.
Update…. My 2nd appearance on GettinDEEP for Episode 6 was much more satifying.
Please check out the replays below or go on Itunes under GETTIN DEEP or ROCKDEEP MEDIA.
https://soundcloud.com/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-5-1-13-episode-1
https://soundcloud.com/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-5-8-13-episode-2
https://soundcloud.com/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-5-18-13-episode-3
https://soundcloud.com/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-5-22-13-episode-4
https://soundcloud.com/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-5-29-13-episode-5
http://m.soundcloud.com/#/kevinandrock/gettin-deep-6-5-13-episode-6
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